Growlithe The Husky

I was journaling a bit today and when I went to look for tags to assign the entry, I scrolled past the tag for Growlithe. Growlithe was the name of my beloved Husky who passed away last year. This is my blog, and I thought it would be nice to just write a bit about him today. Enough time has passed since he left our lives that it seems like a great time to reminisce on the great times we had with him and how great of a companion he was. I hope you enjoy.

Growlithe was 10 years old when he died. He was the first pet my wife and I cared for as a young couple; we adopted him the same week we bought and moved into our first home. Growlithe is the name of a Pokémon, and we decided to name our first dog after it because we both loved Pokémon as kids and the franchise was a decent part of why we were so close to begin with. It’s a little silly, and we mostly called him “Growlie” but the name became him, the silly reference quickly wore off to just be our beloved dog.

Like most (all?) huskies, he was energetic, strong willed, goofy, and sometimes mischievous. Unlike most huskies he was nearly always silent. He wasn’t completely mute, he would make sounds occasionally, but he didn’t howl or bark really ever. But his most significant trait is that he loved being our friend. He was always sad when we left and excited when we came back and he always wanted to just be around us.

In the last couple years of his life he endured one of the biggest challenges of his, and our, life: we invited two kids into our home to eventually be adopted. They were 5 and 6 at the time, and Growlie wasn’t super keen to share our home and attention with them. He tolerated them just fine, and after a couple of disagreements they all came to an understanding of each other, but Growlithe was never super friendly with them. He accepted them into his home, but they were always outsiders to him. That’s sad, but he was an older dog who had spent his whole life in quiet with his two best friends. After the kids moved in his house decidedly less quiet and he rarely got alone time with us anymore. I am proud of his ability to accept them and show them love in his final years, even though he clearly wasn’t thrilled about it all the time.

We miss him, and won’t ever forget the impact he had on our lives. Before he passed, I wrote him a letter telling him how I felt about him, read it to him in a little goodbye ceremony we had with him a day or two before his euthanasia appointment. I won’t share it in full here, but in it I expressed that I believe his final parting gift to us was to help us transition from the “new” family from the kids’ perspective, to their family. We’re continuing to struggle with the challenges of raising children who come from difficult early lives, but saying goodbye to Growlithe will be a foundational moment for me, and I expect the kids will remember it as one as well.

Thank you, friend, for helping us go from a young couple to the loving parents of our children. We’ll see you on the other side.

This Website Is Not For Anyone But Me

I was just checking in on the site, without an idea for what to post, but hoping something would come to me. Maybe I’d write about the weird state emulation is in thanks to Yuzu being sued by, and settling with, Nintendo. Or maybe I’d write about the hassle I’ve gone through to sync a 20 year old iPod photo with iTunes today. I was considering writing about the state of social media and the emergence of competing open protocols ActivityPub and the AT protocol. But when I logged into my wordpress I found this comment:

Hello.
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But here’s the thing: I don’t really want my website to be attractive to visitors. I don’t need help, it’s a website I’ve deliberately hidden from crawlers and I’ve deliberately chosen a dated looking theme and don’t want to put fancy logos or graphics on it. It’s not for making money and I don’t care if no one ever reads it. It’s just a fun place to post that isn’t the property of anyone but me.

So thanks, spam comment that didn’t even make it to a post, go fuck yourself.

Empty Desire to Play

Sometimes I have like an hour of free time sitting in my home office where all my video games happen to also be and I find myself really wanting to play *A* game, but then any particular game I think about doesn’t really sound quite right.

This could be for many reasons, I guess. If I don’t have a game I’m in the middle of, just an hour doesn’t really feel like the right amount of time to put into starting one. Some of the games I’ve been into lately are multiplayer, like Helldivers 2, and playing a single mission solo or playing with randos doesn’t sound great either.

Whatever it is, I should really figure out a way to get over it because often I end up thinking about playing games more than playing them and that’s not a great place to be in.

One way I could get over this is by essentially having a to-do list of games I’m either “currently playing” or need to play next. Lately that’s just been any PS3 games I have a low amount of trophies in, but I’m getting to the point where those are either not going to be started at all or I’m saving for actually digging into. So I should maybe tackle some of my backlog on my Steam Deck maybe.

Whatever it is, I’m going to try and take some screenshots and post updates here about what I’ve been playing lately! Like little mini reviews or something. Idk, it’s my blog I can write whatever I want and no one can stop me!

Hello world!

Welcome to my blog! I’ve been witnessing what seems to be a breakdown of the social web, and in that process realizing that the web I grew up on that was largely personal websites and blogs has not necessarily withered away, I’ve just not been participating in it. I decided there were a couple of great ways to revive it:

  1. Visit more small scale blogs and sites instead of larger sites.
  2. Produce my own small scale blog!

An inspiration for doing this was the excellent ff8isthe.best which is just a goofy blog dedicated to Final Fantasy 8 and stories about it. It’s clear it’s made just for fun, and is therefore fun to read! I’ve also found myself perusing blogs at ooh.directory and it’s just a lot of fun.

Some goals I have for this site are to just write things that might be more extensive than is worth of a post on my Mastodon or Blue Sky accounts. Things I might write about are retro video games, my observations of the games industry today, or just personal stories or musings. I also want this site to be as minimal on web-crud as possible. I don’t plan to “monetize” it by inserting ads or enabling any sort of tracking, and I don’t really want to focus on having a nice design or anything; I just want to keep it simple, clean, and loading fast. I hope you enjoy!